Pioneering Fit and Fat

It’s race day and after flying from Vancouver to San Francisco to run my first half marathon, I am already tired from the anticipation. I get up at 6:00am, brush my teeth and, with insane nervousness, lace up my shoes. I hail a cab to Golden Gate Park where they are hosting the 30th anniversary 5K and Half Marathon Race.   The morning sun dawns the new day and streams through the trees. It’s February but unusually warm, the locals say.   When I arrive, I feel the excitement immediately; there is a buzz of race anticipation coming from the crowd; loud talking and laughter as thousands of people move towards the big archway that marks the start and gateway to what will be one the most physically challenging days of my life. A calm comes over me and the little voice inside my head says on repeat: “You can do this, you can do this, you can do this.” I start buying it.

I inch closer, towards the long rows of tables bustling with volunteers and runners. I find a young man behind the table who’s handing out race packages. It’s this moment that may seem subtle but speaks volumes about where our societal compass sits when it comes to the perception of larger bodies and fitness.

I give him my name and he repeats it under his breath. He looks up at me, and instantly reaches for the 5km race packages, making the assumption, without asking, that I am participating in the shorter distance. The representation of my body size communicates to him an unspoken message that I am not physically capable of running the event’s longer distance. If this were an isolated incident this article wouldn’t exist; however, it happens at every event I am apart of, and that others like me participate in. It might be an out of line comment, a surprised reaction or the articulation of an assumption about what my body is capable of. More commonly comes the perplexed look of confusion when I tell people I am a personal trainer and I own a fitness business.   The well intentioned “good for you” calls echoing from the sidelines in a tone championing a toddler in potty training, further stand to signify that people consider my participation an anomaly.

I correct this young man immediately. “I am here to run the half marathon,” I say sharply.   With surprise and embarrassment he says “Oh” and quickly fumbles for my race package in the other box.   I take my number and the event branded race shirt that is 3 sizes too small, and walk over to my husband and stand off to the side. My excitement and the little voice cheering me on have dissipated. We stand silently waiting for the race to begin. I can’t help feeling defeated in that moment – like an impostor or someone who didn’t just train for months and for hundreds of miles.

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I try to remain positive, as I know this is an integral part of a successful race.

 

Truthfully, I don’t blame the young man for taking the visual cue of my body and neatly categorizing me with the 5k’ers (which is also a very respectable distance, by the way). Why would he believe that my plus-size body is capable of 21 long kilometers when there aren’t any visual cues presented in society to tell us this is possible?

There are no plus size athletes adorning the glossy pages of magazines, very few fitness books speak on this subject, and in movies fat people are commonly portrayed as dorky and comedic, not strong and capable. Seldom in advertising do we see products and services aligning themselves with body diversity. In fact, the only visual cues we receive that include plus size representation in workout gear are generally the “before” pictures in weight loss or gym advertising. Despite study upon study demonstrating that fit can also be fat, most of society can’t see past the media cues that are put in front of us by advertisers. As a result, athletes who fall outside of the athletic “norm” take the brunt of society’s assumptions when attending races and working out in gyms. In spite of this, we continue to participate and pioneer a change in public perception.

 

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Triathlete Wendy Welsher has felt the judgment too. “It’s always intimating walking into mainstream gyms as a plus-size girl. Everything changed for me after I found my personal trainer, Rossanna. She has pushed me to be an athlete and has only looked at me for my potential, not my size. She has then encouraged me to become a personal trainer so I can now help girls like me”. It was when Wendy finally found the appropriate support that her athleticism excelled.

 

 

 

Cyclist and Runne10595824_10152244520566121_1317576684_nr, Natalie Dzepina, also recalls people pointing at her and laughing during races: “I was called ”Fatso” a few times. I think seeing a fat chick running makes people uncomfortable. Like her place should be on a sofa with a bag of chips. It’s never bothered me as long as I’m out running”.

While these experiences of judgment and discrimination are disappointing, the morale of this story isn’t to be a victim, but to raise awareness around size diversity in athleticism. You see, judgment is rampant and this creates insurmountable barriers for the plus-size population who live in a diet culture of “move more, eat less” advice every time they see their physician, turn on the TV or read a magazine. Many of these individuals want to be active, but can’t face the vulnerability of putting themselves out there to be judged. When we talk about a health crisis in North America, this is it. It is not “obesity” but how we respond to it.

 

COSAT-0628Krista Henderson is a seasoned triathlete and writer of the popular blog “Born to Reign” dedicated to plus size athleticism, She writes, “Healthy and unhealthy bodies comes in all shapes and sizes. It’s unfortunate the media has created such an unrealistic image of what health looks like, with sculpted bodies and 6-pack abs. The fitness industry is so heavily influenced by the beauty culture.” (Photo credit, Mike Cheliak)

Despite most of society assuming that fat automatically equals unfit and unhealthy there are many highly respected researchers and agencies that say otherwise.

Steven Blair is a renowned exercise researcher at the Cooper Institute in Dallas, Texas. His research shows that excess weight is not “the enemy.” Not getting enough exercise and being cardiovascular unfit are much greater contributors to poor health than any extra poundage can be. Blair stands firmly by his research that fit, fat people outlive thin, unfit people.

In 2012 The National Cancer Institute also backed this up by reporting that moderately obese people actually lived about 3.1 years longer than normal-weight persons.

Another study, published in the European Heart Journal, showed that when obese people are metabolically healthy – with healthy blood pressure, cholesterol and blood sugar – they are at no greater risk of dying from heart disease or cancer than those who are of normal weight.

Despite the research and increasing numbers of plus-size athletes lacing up we still see judgment and discrimination even for athletes at an elite level.

In the media, emerging stories on plus-size professional athleticism spark a body image controversy. 18-year-old tennis player Taylor Townsend caused a media wave when she beat 21st ranked Alize Cornet and advanced to the third round in the French Open. She is the youngest US female to advance to that level. Yet, three years earlier, in spite of her rising success, the U.S. Tennis Association tried to keep her out of competition at the U.S. Open.  It was reported that until she lost weight, they would not support her.

She is not alone.

Recently, Yahoo Shine published an article about Major League Baseball pro Prince Fielder and the cover he did for ESPN, featuring his naked, powerful, body.

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If you are not familiar with Fielder he plays first base for the Texas Rangers since 2002. He is a five-time All-Star, positioning himself as an elitist among the elite. Yet, to my disappointment the article’s headline read: “This Male Athlete Is Getting Fat-Shamed”.

This negative exposure is disheartening. As I, and other plus-sized athletes like me, continue to suit up and show up at races and in the gyms, we must look around and ask why others don’t?  If elite athletes are the subjects of public-scrutiny despite highly ranking athletic achievement, then what message does that give to the novice who sits on the sidelines hoping to be active one day?  People are fearful of fitness and rightly so.

We can’t harp on people to move their bodies when we live in a society that shames and judges us for our attempts.

That day in Golden Gate Park I ran my heart out. I ran for 2 hours and 51 minutes. I pushed myself towards the finish line elated in tears that I was going to make it. I wanted to quit but I knew my husband, my biggest supporter, was waiting for me at the finish line. I often think to myself, what if everyone had this kind of support from loved ones or just as importantly from strangers? What if everyone was celebrated for his or her athletic achievement, regardless of their size?

I’ve gone on to run and cycle many more long distance races and I never care what people think, anymore. I want to be in the game and inspire others to live their athletic dreams. As Teddy Roosevelt so eloquently said in his historical speech back in 1910:

It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.”

We are athletes and we are daring greatly to change the landscape of the athleticism for everyone, if society will step back, ponder this article, and give us a chance.

 

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Jen@PlusSizeBirth
August 12, 2014 at 11:08 PM

Your article made me cry happy tears. Tears brought on by inspiring words. Thank you for being a voice for plus size athletes. You are a champion for people of all sizes who are eager to push themselves physically.

Vivienne
August 14, 2014 at 01:08 AM

You are amazing Louise. Its so vital to have voices out there like yours getting more stories of plus size athletes out there…

Bethany
August 15, 2014 at 01:08 PM

Great post. I am fat and am currently training to walk my 12th half marathon. I’m a certified personal trainer, a half marathon coach, and a swimmer. I love to move my body. I have experienced so much fat shaming through the years – from rude shouts from passing cars as I train, to only being able to buy a hat at a marathon expo because all the clothing options were for thin people. It always astounds me that fat people are constantly told to move our bodies (ostensibly so we will become smaller), and yet when we get out and get active, we are often bullied and shamed, and we are not given the same clothing options as smaller athletes. So… we’re supposed to exercise naked in private?

What you have written here is extremely important. Thank you!

Rachel Chorlton
August 20, 2014 at 03:08 PM

Louise, I shared this with my wife article and she reminded me of what happened to me recently. As I was checking in for the Fraser Valley MedioFondo (88km ride at the end of July), one of the volunteers exclaimed “You’re not doing this are you?”. I remember being a little taken aback but it was not until we got in the car to drive away that I realised that she was basically commenting on my weight – she did not make the same comment to anyone else within our earshot, some of whom were considerably older (but thinner) than me!

Anyway, I got over her small minded, thoughtlessness and completed the ride the next day, and still feel very proud of myself as I would not have been able to do this a year ago. Now onto the 200km ride in September …